Exhausted...
Topic: Miscarriage
I'm unbelievably exhausted mentally and physically. I was up on and off through the night passing clots and other things. It was the most excruciating pain I have ever felt in my life but I think *hope* the worst is over. I'm still cramping and feeling generally uneasy but I'm sure that is to be expected, I'm just glad I have until Tuesday to try and recover. I won't be doing much of anything I don't think except maybe laying in bed and studying. Emotionally I'm okay I've cried all I can cry for now and I'm just trying to look on the bright side of things. Rich seems numb, he can talk about it without crying but only b/c he seems to not be putting any feelings into what he is saying. He wants to get a nice frame for the pictures of our little bean we got last night which sounds like a good idea. Bean looked so perfect with it's little arm and leg buds! It was still good we got to see it I think, it gave us a bit of closure. Anyhow, I'm going on hiatus for awhile from journals and message boards, I just need a break.

We lost the baby
Mood:  down
Topic: Miscarriage
We lost the baby. I went to the ER and they did a U/S and there was no heartbeat and the baby was only measuring 9wks. My hCG levels were only at 6wk levels. We are going to try and miscarry naturally but if something goes wrong they will do the D&C. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. I'm sure we will get through and be trying again next year in September.