I really hate all this waiting stuff!
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Jamie Cullum - "What a difference a Day Makes"
Topic: TTC
Another faint line with an Answer brand HPT. I compared it at PeeOnAStick and it looks pretty similar to some of the other BFP's and AF is a day late so things are looking good. This is so crazy, HaHaHa! I don't know whether to sing or cry *lol*!

A faint BFP!
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Allias
Topic: TTC
Again I couldn't resist and I tested a bit ago with my last FRE and after almost 10 mins (I couldn't check it earlier b/c DS was going potty) I got 2 lines. I just ran out and got 2 more tests so I will check tomorrow with FMU. I think after all this me getting a BFP would be crazy. I seriously have myself convinced I am not pregnant.

No AF yet
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Dave Matthew's - "Angel"
Topic: TTC
No AF has not reared her face just yet and the only symptoms of her impending arrival are the cramps I have had since 7 DPO and that sore BB's I have had since 11 DPO, so who knows when she'll be here. I have been tracking everything at FF just incase I need it for future reference. According to this tool if I am indeed pregnant I would be due 6/08/06. And as of today I would be 4 weeks! I know I shouldn't be looking so far ahead but I can't help it. Anyhow, here's hoping AF doesn't show!

It's official, my body hates me!
Mood:  not sure
Topic: TTC
My body has been acting VERY strange this cycle! Normally 3 days before AF I get moody, crampy, EWCM and tender BB's. This cycle however I starting being super bitch and cramping at 7 dpo, had 1 day of EWCM on 9dpo sore BB's, nausea and almost constant salivation (I'm not sure if this is b/c of the nausea or not) that started yesterday. The cramps have been exactly like AF cramps but I've never gotten them so early before. I really don't think I will BFP this month but my body is really messing with me! This TTC stuff is so mind boggling!

So I said I wasn't...
Now Playing: Sam Phillips -
Topic: TTC
...then I said I was and then I said I wasn't but I ended up testing and of course got a BFN, just as I suspected. I was feeling a bit blue so after my 2 exercise classes this morning I went to the 2nd hand shop and picked up 2 gowns, 2 sleepers, a 2 piece onsie outfit and the most adorable little robe with a ducky on it. I feel better *lol* :-)! It didn't help that one of the women in my Water Exercise class just became a grandma and that was ALL she talked about for the hour. Thankfully she wasn't in the second class or I would have been bawling my eyes out. Not that I'm not happy for her but *UuUuUuGgGgGgHhHhHh* it's hard to listen when someone else gets what you want!

Anyhow, I've decided once my next cycle begins I'm going to get a 90 day paid subscription to Fertility Friend that way I have a better idea what's going on and can pin-point O better. Not that it's elusive to me but I want as close to 100% accuracy as I can get. On that note I suppose I should get to studying!

10 dpo
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: Howie Day - "Collide"
Topic: TTC
I'm still an extremely moody bitch but Rich and I have kissed and made up *chuckles*. I've had cramping for the past 3 days and now the acne is starting. Chances are VERY slim that I will actually be pregnant. We have decided to keep trying until November though which gives us 2 more months. That means I really need to get back to temping and charting EVERYDAY and from day CD 10 until CD 17 we WILL BD day and night *lol*! Friday we went and got some First Response Early tests but we're not going to test unless AF is late. I think it would be a waste to do it otherwise. So that's that my wait will be over this week BFP or not!

I really want...
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: John Mayer - "Not Myself"
Topic: TTC
... to be pregnant! I'm pretty sure I'm not at this point. I've been SUPER-BITCH today. I yell and cuss about almost EVERYTHING. I just want to get away from everyone and be alone (it probably would be safer for everyone around me too). My cervix is cramping and uterus is doing little flip-flops (both symptoms that AF is on her way for me). I'm sad. Even though at this moment I strongly dislike Rich I WANT A BABY! Well maybe next month will be the one :-(!

8 days to go...
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Ella Fitzgerald - "Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered"
Topic: TTC
... until testing. I've been an emotional wreck and Rich is not helping in the least. He's having second thoughts/new parent worries and it's really pissing me off (to say the least). I'm trying to be understanding but OMG his #1 reason why we shouldn't have a baby is the house and if he actually got off his ass and helped me with things it wouldn't's be such a big problem but I can't do it myself. *UuUuGgGgHhHh* and I cry at the freaking drop of a hat, I'm not depressed and I think it's to early for pregnancy symptoms. WTF is wrong with me!?!? I just want next week to get here so I can test and then move-on regardless of the results!

We've started...
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Coldplay - "In My Place"
Topic: TTC
...and let me tell you the past 5 days have been hell! Just the thought that I have 9 more days like this until I test is misery! I seriously don't know how women who have been TTCing for months do it. I'm ready to go out of my mind.