Mood:  down
Topic: Pregnancy
I woke up this morning around 4am with some brown discharge and then at about 5:30 I started passing clots. I called my midwife and she ordered some blood work and told me to call if the bleeding or cramps get worse but there isn't much they can do. It will either stop and everything will be fine or I will miscarry. I'm pretty much convinced this pregnancy is over, it's easier for me to deal with that way. I'm sad and I really wanted this baby more then anything but from the medical stand point I understand why these sort-of things happen and that I'm not alone. I have a beautiful 7 year old boy who needs me and someday we will have our baby, just now isn't the time I guess. DF is taking it much harder. He cried and blamed himself and now he's in denial which is making it a bit harder. He wanted to stay home but there isn't much he can do and if he's at work at least his mind will be occupied. I have to go and get my blood work done if I can get up the strength. I'm extremely tired from waking up through the night and have been up since 4am. But the test is important in case I need the Rhogam shot so I have to do it. I'll update later when I know more.